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Self-Portrait with Boy

by Rachel Lyon

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(2.2K ratings)

Why You'll Love This

She accidentally photographed a child's death — and the most morally uncomfortable part is how badly you understand why she wants to use it.

  • Great if you want: fiction that refuses to let ambition off the hook morally
  • The experience: tense, claustrophobic, and ethically uncomfortable in the best way
  • The writing: Lyon builds dread through accumulation — small pressures that rarely release
  • Skip if: you need a protagonist you can root for without reservation

About This Book

What would you sacrifice for the thing you've spent your whole life working toward? Lu Rile is a photographer barely holding her life together—three jobs, a failing father, a home threatened by developers—when a single accidental image lands in her hands: a self-portrait with a boy falling to his death in the background. The photograph is undeniably powerful, possibly career-defining. The boy is her neighbor's child. The tension Lyon builds from this premise isn't simply ethical; it's visceral, the kind that makes you interrogate your own ambitions and wonder, uncomfortably, what you'd do.

Lyon writes with a sharp, unsentimental precision that suits her protagonist perfectly. The novel's Brooklyn warehouse setting feels lived-in and unglamorous in the best way, grounding the moral drama in the textures of actual financial precarity. What sets the reading experience apart is how Lyon refuses easy sympathies—Lu is not especially likable, and that's entirely the point. The prose stays close and unsparing, and the structure builds quietly until the weight of every small decision becomes almost unbearable. This is a novel that takes ambition seriously as a subject.