About This Book
Lydia Bird has spent over a decade building a life with Freddie — until a car accident on her twenty-eighth birthday takes him from her in an instant. What follows is a story about grief in its rawest form, but also something stranger and more unsettling: Lydia discovers she can slip back into a version of her life where Freddie never died. The novel forces a question that cuts deep — if you could live two lives simultaneously, one defined by loss and one by the love you lost, which would you choose? And what does it cost you to keep choosing?
Josie Silver writes with a warmth that makes Lydia feel like someone you know — her grief is messy and specific, never romanticized. The dual-timeline structure does real emotional work here, each thread sharpening the other so that joy and sorrow become almost indistinguishable. Silver resists easy resolution, letting the novel sit with its central tension longer than readers might expect. The result is a book that reads quickly but stays with you, less because of what happens and more because of how honestly it captures the impossible arithmetic of moving on.
